Last month I was catching up with a good friend of mine, and we were talking about everything from jobs to boys to family and holidays. Both of us are outgoing people. We were frustrated because, well, simply stated- we want it all.
When it comes to life, there are so many things that I want, and I’m realizing for the first time that I won’t be in my mid-20’s forever. I’m in this totally delightful part of my life where I am responsible only for myself. I am not married, I have no kids, and I am fortunate to have a job so I can pay rent and live where I choose.
I want to have a career working on issues that are important to me and spend my life trying to make the world better, even if it’s just one person at a time. I want to travel. Lots. It is much easier for me to list the places where I have no interest in going than listing where I do want to go. I want to learn the languages of the countries I visit. I want to have enough time in each of those places to understand the culture. I want my family to live close to each other. I want to have the luxury of staying home and being a mommy. I want to give my time, effort, and love in full to my children. I want to go on lots of dates with different people just for the heck of it. I want to settle down and devote my life to the chance to grow old with the man I love. I want to live in the city and be involved in the hustle and bustle. I want to live in the country and spend time looking at the stars. I want it all.
But that’s not how life goes. I guess I have to recognize where my skills and talents are needed and then be unafraid to follow that route, wherever it takes me.
On a completely different note, I just caught my nylons and have a run in them now. Gosh! It’s as though purchasing nylons is mostly just like throwing my money away. All I had was glue to temporarily keep it from getting larger. How terribly classy of me. I seem to be a hazard today. I found a swimming partner though! It will be good to have someone to workout with and push my limits. Last night my swim was pretty horrendous. Not swimming during my time in Wyoming + eating lots of Christmas cookies = my swimming more closely resembling drowning. It will be better tonight.
I sound whiny. I promise you that I am happy with all of the opportunities I have, and I am thankful for having the freedom to want and to dream.
"Be practical as well as generous in your ideals. Keep your eyes on the stars, but remember to keep your feet on the ground." -T. Roosevelt 1904
Love always.
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