There are 2 turtle doves that have made the big pine tree off of my backyard patio their home. They are out there every day. They sit very still and then with no notice will powerfully take off and fly about, often chasing each other and causing quite a ruckus. My mom has dubbed them Fred and Myrtle. They are the ultimate pair.
As the time approaches for me to make the big move to Germany, I find I have many questions and realizations. I think this is pretty normal. For instance, after my swim last night I had celery with peanut butter. Peanut butter! This go-to will not be part of my life for a year. I can certainly do without. What about all of my friends in DC? I left less than a month ago, and I already feel disconnected (I have been a horrible correspondent, so this is my fault). I miss them. A lot. What will it be like a year from now? I'm soaking up the wide open spaces here in Wyoming. What will it be like to live in a country with 82 million people and not much land? Even when I lived in DC, I came back to Wyoming to see family from time to time. Will I find a place of refuge in Deutschland? (I think I will... I like everywhere I live and am good at finding pieces of home everywhere.) What will happen with jobs upon return? Will I have the same goals? Completely different? Not at all changed? Will my heart be in the same place, and will I have a chance to pay attention to that part of my life for once?
I'm so thankful that I have such a closely knit family. This packing and preparing process is not exactly fun, but it is fun being here to giggle and talk with my mom, swim with and hug my brother, and get coffee and talk about dreams with my sister.
Gosh, this move would be a million times harder had I not come back to Wyoming for these few weeks, but because I came back, it's a million times harder for different reasons. I think that's a sign that life's good though, you know? I wouldn't want to have nothing to miss.
Love always.
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